3.10.10

what you see

When I am sad, I hide.
When I am burdened, I keep to myself.
When I am lonely, I stay lonely and I don't mind.

When I feel restored, I want to reach out.
I wonder how many people have been wading through the waters of life, and like me, don't talk about it.

When my brother-in-law won a gift of a photo shoot with an amazing photographer and gave the gift to us for a (first ever) pro family photo, I didn't book the appointment.  I wanted to wait until the "sad" left my eyes.

I took this picture of myself a couple of months ago.

I wondered if my eyes would tell too much of my heart....maybe you don't see it.  Maybe you didn't see it.

That's ok.

Only a couple of people knew vaguely about my struggle and it's probably because it was tough for even me to define.

Today I praise God because the cloud is lifting and I've been given a fresh realization of who He is and how He is at work in and around me.  I thank Him for the many times He gave me the power to live beyond my circumstances and do the work He has called me to do - in my home, in my church.  I'm grateful that even though the waters felt deep, I did not drown.  I am not drowning.


Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; 
       my hope comes from him.

  He alone is my rock and my salvation; 
       he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.

  My salvation and my honor depend on God
       he is my mighty rock, my refuge.

  Trust in him at all times, O people; 
       pour out your hearts to him, 
       for God is our refuge. 
       Selah
       psalm 62:5-8

3 comments:

  1. Deanne3.10.10

    I wonder how things would change if we were really honest with how we were feeling. I was where you were, just recently and before. I don't why it's so hard to admit, or share. But this past time I was honest with a few people and it was amazing and that 2 of them said they had been there and they got it. It was so awesome to know I was not alone/crazy! :) I find it very tiring putting on a front.
    thanks for the blog today!

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  2. Deanne3.10.10

    PS I'm glad that things are looking brighter for you and that God is teaching you more of himself through all of this. Love to you!

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  3. Pauline W5.10.10

    "Now we see thru a glass darkly...but then face to face."

    Especially in the 'dark' times, we yearn for the clarity of transparency, yet choose the anonymity of seclusion. May God restore His Spirit-joy to your heart and fill you beyond your expectations.

    As I've learned, there is MUCH to be learned in 'the dark nights of the soul'. God bless

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