When I am burdened, I keep to myself.
When I am lonely, I stay lonely and I don't mind.
When I feel restored, I want to reach out.
I wonder how many people have been wading through the waters of life, and like me, don't talk about it.
When my brother-in-law won a gift of a photo shoot with an amazing photographer and gave the gift to us for a (first ever) pro family photo, I didn't book the appointment. I wanted to wait until the "sad" left my eyes.
I wondered if my eyes would tell too much of my heart....maybe you don't see it. Maybe you didn't see it.
Only a couple of people knew vaguely about my struggle and it's probably because it was tough for even me to define.
Today I praise God because the cloud is lifting and I've been given a fresh realization of who He is and how He is at work in and around me. I thank Him for the many times He gave me the power to live beyond my circumstances and do the work He has called me to do - in my home, in my church. I'm grateful that even though the waters felt deep, I did not drown. I am not drowning.
Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.