all day yesterday after i posted, i regretted it. not the posting, but admitting my current struggle in such a public way. what will people think?
i live a very satisfying life, anyone can see that! what will they think of me when they hear that i struggle to keep content with all i have?
i have a husband who is kind, faithful, smart and fun.
i have three healthy, vibrant, relatively obedient children, who never ever have to go without milk to drink.
i have a very cute and cozy home home full of things that are special to me.
i have a job that i feel is a direct gift from the Lord's hand.
i am healthy and strong in my body and mind (most days).
i have a rich heritage of faith and a cloud of witnesses in my daily life to help me.
not content? that's just gross!
but here's what the Lord whispered to me:
don't worry about what you think people see - the externals don't matter. the enemy can always find a way to dig into our deepest fears and desires, twisting them to dissatisfaction. if you don't protect yourself by surrounding yourself with the Truth, you will fall into the temptation that nothing is enough. that you are not enough.
"Humble yourself, therefore, under God's mighty hand,
that He may lift you up in due time.
Cast all your anxiety on Him because
He cares for you.
Be alert and of sober mind.
Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion,
looking for someone to devour.
Resist him, standing firm in the faith...."
1 Peter 5:6-9
"Taste and see that the Lord is good;
blessed is the one who takes refuge in Him.
Fear the Lord, you his saints,
for those who fear Him lack nothing.
The lions may grow weak and hungry,
but those who seek the Lord lack
no good thing.
God is Faithful.
the devil is a liar.
The Lord has things to teach me and I will not let my pride get in the way. If He told me to do this here, maybe someone out there needs to hear the same things.
Humble yourselves, friends, and watch that lion starve!