So today I'm doing something kind of new. It's something I am, most appropriately put, anxiously awaiting. (Meaning: I'm a little anxious about it and am waiting to get it done!)
Tonight I'm giving "the talk" at a Ladies Evening at the Maples Community Church. The theme for the evening is "Reaching Out" which I felt was one of those 'God has a sense of humor' kind of moments given my blog from last month.
I'm not super-keen on public speaking, which probably seems silly given my job as a worship leader... Though to be fair (to me!), this is a little different. Rather than a sentence or two to provide a connecting thought between songs, or rather than sharing a five minute devotional, which I've done a few times, this is a little more. A little more of myself, my heart, my view of the world and the Bible.
I prepared what I felt God would have me say over a week ago and have been practicing sounding natural - now that's an oxymoron! In the last few days, I've started to doubt my material. What if this isn't what they meant by 'reaching out', what if no one can relate to or understand what I'm trying say?
No coincidence, I'm sure, the verse I will be ending the talk with tonight is the one I need to hear on this afternoon leading up to it....
"For God did not give us a spirit of TIMIDITY, but a spirit of POWER, of LOVE and of SELF-DISCIPLINE." 2 Timothy 1:7
I've been praying for a long time that the Lord would use me in whatever way He sees fit, and have often wondered if an opportunity like this would present itself - and if I would be able to do it. I guess I'm about to find out!
I think I'll go practice sounding natural one more time....